He Overwhelms

God's goodness is overwhelming. Um..yes! I can definitely agree with that.

     One month ago, I woke up and my prayer was to see the beauty of God. I wasn't specific or very detailed. I just asked God to reveal His beauty to me. Later on that evening, He revealed himself. For, my prayer was all about being reminded of who God is in the daily moment of my life. And there it was. And it didn't happen immediately when I asked. It was almost revealed right at the end of the day. Either way, He still showed up. He appeared. He arrived. He answered His promise. But it was more than I could have thought of myself. It was a huge picture of His beauty. It was this gorgeous sunset. This beautiful picture just reminded me of how God is always sure to come through in His faithfulness. He never holds anything back. I realize now that the God who puts the sky together in such beautifully ordered ways, is also the same Lord who holds my life together. This revelation of God never stops. He showed me his beauty a month ago, and every moment since then He has continued to speak, reveal, and show up to surprise me with His goodness. Well, He has done more than that. He has overwhelmed me with His goodness. We say that, don't we? "My soul is overwhelmed." We mean it in a good way and so do I. But I don't think I have ever truly felt the reality of His goodness before this moment.

His goodness overwhelms me literally to the point where I can barely handle it.

     I have been praying for God to reveal himself and speak directly to my heart. He did that. I have prayed over many fears within the last several months, and He has delivered me and crossed off just about every fear that I have felt.

        There was fear in leaving one state and moving to a different state. There was fear involved in how a job would work itself out. I was given the job in the very first interview I had. There was fear and concern surrounding  tuition finances. I was gifted a scholarship that will pay for all of seminary, including summer and J-Term. There is fear of inadequacy and He showed me how it will be okay because He will be adequate for me. There was fear in which direction to go with ministry. He brought connections, encouragement from friends, and light to where He is leading. The prayer for deep friendships was answered within the first week of arriving to seminary. I don't even know how to begin to praise God.

      But I do know know that God can be exalted above the heavens. I have been humbled and I really don't listen to God quite as much as I should. Yet, I think He has changed the way He speaks to me. He is speaking directly into me through people, Scripture, and time in His presence without me being still. Being still has become different for me as I grow close to the Lord. And as I think of this,  it is actually an answer to prayer because I have asked Him to speak. I have asked Him to reveal. I have asked Him to show himself and to show me how He delights in me. And, well, I see God so much clearly.

The Lord delights in us and it is amazing to see it happen.